Spirituality. I
cannot speak authoritatively for anyone else, but my own experiences within
this ethereal forever-land leave me reeling with the reality that what I know to be accurate and iron-clad
oftentimes leaves me with the bitter aftertaste that lingers from eating the
ever-so popular and multi-cultural cuisine better known as crow. It’s when you assert something as a matter of
fact and later are forced to eat your words from the platter of pride. Have you ever been there? Have you ever been so convinced of something
being true that you would have bet the farm over the validity and value of
whatever it was that you believed only to later find yourself at the mercy of
torrential wind storms responsible for the calculated deconstruction of your own
sheltered stronghold? Over the years I knew a lot of different things covering topics
relating to spirituality; God and His interaction within humanity and the rules
of engagement for that interaction. The sad truth for me, and many within what is called “the
body,” I fear, is the truth to which I clung turned out to be little more than the
regurgitated dogma of men, lacking the semblance to anything truly divine.
I still struggle to grasp the many facets comprising Gods nature
and the beauty that envelopes Him. As
much as I want His nature to reflect my own, that will never happen. At best I might catch a glimpse of a shimmer
of a shadow of who He is, but I dare not take my experience and attempt to
build a church around it . . . He cannot be contained! I dare not attempt the analysis of what was
revealed . . . He cannot be equated! I
dare not manipulate the beauty within the fabric which is His tapestry, created
in His own image . . . that is idolatry! Woe is the day I decide to throw the robes of
judgment over my brother in any attempt to classify his stature within the
beauty of Gods holiness or the congregation of His righteous! I’ve done this far too many times. He calls me to stop!
What do I do then? I
let Him love me and I love Him in return.
That’s really as complicated as it needs to be! That is true spirituality! I need to release myself from my imprisoned
need to defend and define who God is. As
I love Him He becomes known because He lives in and through me.
Jesus said one thing that is still revolutionary today. It cannot be overcome by any military or law
of the land. Kingdoms will bow at the
truth these words contain, others will be destroyed. He
uttered: “Blessed are the meek, for they
shall inherit the earth (Mt. 5:5).”
Why are these words so perplexing? Because they go against the grain of
everything this world is. It defies
everything religion has to offer; the status, position, education and caste.
I believe it is time to re-evaluate the group with whom I
long to be identified.
